I'm having a bad night. I can't sleep. I'm so tired but I can't sleep. I have to do something tomorrow that I'm dreading. I don't want to go to sleep because I know when I wake up I have to do it. It's confrontational and I hate, hate, hate, HATE confrontation. And there isn't any way I can NOT do it, it has to be done.
I was reading and reading and reading and falling asleep with the book in my hand so I put the book down thinking okay, maybe now I'll fall asleep but I can't.
I don't know how I'm going to do the other things I need to do tomorrow if I haven't slept. How am I going to run? How am I going to pick up DB so he can have his driving weekend. It's an hour to his father's house and an hour back and I'm supposed to pick him up at seven pm? How am I going to do the confrontational thing I have to do with a clear and calm mind if I haven't had any damn sleep?