Brisk 5 minute warm up walk
Brief stretching routine
Run twenty minutes
Longer stretching routine
I’m embarrassed to even be posting the fact that I still
smoke, but I do. I have a cigarette in stressful times. Unfortunately, there
have been a lot of stressful times lately. Instead of screaming and pulling my
hair out and collapsing into a whimpering ball of snot, I have a cigarette. I
know all about how bad they are; you don’t have to tell me. I know precisely
what I’m doing to my body. I also know
there are times when I want that fucking cigarette so goddamn bad I will drop
kick an orphan if she’s standing between me and my pack.
I found this when I Googled for an image of "whimpering ball of snot". Well, that ain't it, but it's very...very...mesmerizing. picture credit: DRES13 |
I want one now, thinking about how embarrassed I will be
when I post this. I’m posting it anyway; in the extremely remote chance that…I
don’t know….maybe my embarrassment helps someone somewhere. Whatever. I want a
smoke NOW and I don’t have any. I want to finish this post before I go
get some.
Breathing was very difficult today (fucking duh). The two
half miles I timed I did in 8:09 and 7:31.
Hey, have I mentioned I ran twenty minutes today? Because I
did. I ran twenty minutes.
Yes, breathing was very difficult. As I was running and
breathing heavily (and with difficulty) I was noticing all the lumpy hills off
the stretch of road I use. The area I run through most frequently is an unfinished
subdivision. Long unfinished, when the economy tanked they just stopped
building. And the obligatory twenty foot high piles of dirt that bloom at
building sites just got left where they were. They’ve worn down some and they’re
covered with plant-life.
Not quite this awesome are the mounds on my street... Kościuszko Mound, Krakow, Poland |
I could use those. I could use those for training for the DGMR.
I could also go over to the park across the railroad tracks and use the play
equipment. I need to take a picture of these hills.
Mutherpussbucket, it was COLD this morning. Okay, I’m
exaggerating a bit. Fifty degrees is not that cold, not compared to winter. But
it was cold enough to make me put on my navy long knit pants and wear a light
jacket.
The damn pants kept slipping down. My navy long knit pants are
too loose to run in now. So I got that little victory today.
So I ran all the way up the street and back down again, a
distance of approximately 1.7 miles, in 21:39.
I can’t understand this, but I feel sort of scared. I should
feel more excited by this achievement, and part of me does. But I have to go to
the grocery store today. I have to go to
the big one…I think I’ll go to Schnucks, it’s off on the outskirts of town, not
the middle. And also there’s a reception
at someone’s house we need to go attend later today. There’ll be a lot of
strangers at the reception. People I don’t know I mean; TheMan knows them.
It'll be like this. Perfectly nice people at an outdoor party. Picture credit: Some old Dutch master I'm too lazy to look up 'cause he's dead a long time. |
It will feel more like this. A nerve-wracking blur of noisy sound and people I don't know. Picture credit: Fanfnirr? |
Okay, I’m getting really cold sitting here. The overhead fan
is on and for reasons I won’t go into I could shut it off but I’d have to
remember to turn it back on and I don’t want to have to try and remember. So I’m
stopping now, with my grumpy grouchiness.
Let me just say that I am REALLY nervous about week 5 day 3. I mean REALLY nervous!! And yes, I realize that I have done it before. Doesn't make me feel better about it.
ReplyDeleteAt this point I am trying to keep myself from looking more than one week ahead of the schedule. Because when I look out more than that I start having serious doubts that I will be able to finish.
Tomorrow I'm doing the mileage workout, so I'll be running the full two miles, which will probably take me a full thirty minutes.
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