I wanted to write about my second day of running being better
than my first but I can’t.
I’m feeling highly over stimulated today. I know it’s
because I’ve been online too much lately. Now I can’t focus on the things I
need to do, like message or call people I’ve asked advice from and they asked
me to message or call them. I thought it was a really simple question, yes, the
stretches are still effective or no, find new ones. Why does that require a
message or a call? But that’s what they asked for so it should be easy to
message or call, right? But right now it’s not.
I don’t like this part of me, this high anxiety part that
has so much trouble doing things other people do without even thinking about
it.
Right now I don’t want to be touched or talked to or asked
to do anything or have an opinion or anything that requires more mental energy.
I have to focus on getting ready for work and being able to work when I get
there.
If it helps any, I find the time that I am running mentally restful. I often find myself working through problems while running. Not so much at the beginning of C25K but more towards the end of it and during the runs after you graduate.
ReplyDeleteHeh, on my last run, I thought of 5 more subjects I wish to blog about :)