I wanted to write about my second day of running being better than my first but I can’t.
I’m feeling highly over stimulated today. I know it’s because I’ve been online too much lately. Now I can’t focus on the things I need to do, like message or call people I’ve asked advice from and they asked me to message or call them. I thought it was a really simple question, yes, the stretches are still effective or no, find new ones. Why does that require a message or a call? But that’s what they asked for so it should be easy to message or call, right? But right now it’s not.
I don’t like this part of me, this high anxiety part that has so much trouble doing things other people do without even thinking about it.
Right now I don’t want to be touched or talked to or asked to do anything or have an opinion or anything that requires more mental energy. I have to focus on getting ready for work and being able to work when I get there.